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I Think Too Much

I guess thinking shouldn’t be a bad thing — but it can be.

I think too much.

I think about what I’m going to say to the point that sometimes I say nothing for fear that my words will make me sound too happy or too sarcastic or too sappy or too anything.

I think about what I have already said to the point that sometimes I avoid the person I said it to for fear that my words made me sound too happy or too sarcastic or too sappy or too anything.

I think about what I’m going to write too much to. Mainly with emails or notes or texts to friends — what if they read it on the other end and interpret what I say as too anything?

I think too much.

I think about events that haven’t even taken place yet. Places I want to visit. People I want to see. What will I wear? What will I say? How should I fix my hair? I think about how they will react if I wear jeans or khakis. I think about how they will react if I greet them with a hug or a weep. I think about events that could possibly never take place.

I think about events that already happened. I think about what I said or what I did or what I was wearing. I think about how it would have been different if I chose different words or even a different hair style.

I think too much.

Sometimes thinking can get in the way of doing and being and living. It’s impossible to plan everything that takes place — every word, every gesture, every outfit. Maybe I think to try to plan it all out. Maybe it’s my attempt to make sure it happens the way I want it to happen. Thinking can lead to positive outcomes when you don’t do it too much — when you don’t forget to act because you’re too caught up in your thoughts.

So, I think too much — sometimes.

But hopefully the thinking will give way to action, to events, to life. Hopefully the thinking stops in time for life to move forward — hopefully.

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